Its Back

My headaches have come back with a vengeance.  I am still taking my preventers, but obviously the stress levels this week are a bit more than normal.

Since I found out about my Dads cancer and since the stress of work this week, I have been getting daily headaches.  Yesterday all our friends were around for Harry's birthday party and I was able to forget and so I remained headache free.

Today I was hit with a doozy. The routine is to take panadol once the headache hits. To take maxalon to stop the nausea. Generally this is usually gets rid of the headache.  This morning I took panadol and maxalon and it didnt do anything and the headache got worse.  So for the first time since I have been taking migrane preventer tablets I also had to take a migrane tablet - remember the $10.00 pills. Thankfully it took the headache away, but it has left me feeling all woozy and tired.

I was doing so well up until last week and I was pretty much headache free, but I guess the stress of Dad and the stress of work is too much for my body to cope.

Tomorrow I am not working. I am going down to Sydney to be with my parents. My dad has to be at the hospital at 9:00am for all of the tests that they need to run.  They need to see what his health is like and to see if the cancer has spread.

I have finally decided what I am going to do and it does make me feel a bit better.

With work - I am going to leave. Whether I am fired or whether i resign I am going to go.  I have been worried all along what I am going to do for work and have been applying for jobs that are either supermarket cashier or simple admin jobs. The way I was feeling, I would have taken anything. I had a brainwave this morning and I am going to ring around some mobile book keepers and see if they need anyone for casual work.  I have a skill and even if I dont want to do it anymore, I can use it as a means to make money for the mean time.  The difference I feel is immense.

With my Dad - I am so glad that he came up for Harry's party.  He wasnt going to come as he is too feeling lost and helpless.  Just seeing him gave me a confidence that he is going to be OK. Hopefully tomorrow we get some positive news.

With Uni - I am going to go back.  A friend that came up yesterday, her 22 year old daughter graduated from Uni at the end of last year. She is now a Registered Nurse and she loves it.  We have known her daughter for 9 year and the difference in her from when she was at school to now she has finished uni is astounding.  The lease of life this girl has. She is so positive and basically has a love for life and loves doing what she is doing.  So it has cemented it in my mind. What can I lose!

So as I am keen to go back, I am bummed that UoN does not have a mid year intake. They do have a thing called Open Foundations.  It is really for people that have not attended Uni before and are over the age of 20.  It allows you to do a couple of subjects and the marks that you get allow you entry in the Bachelor of Nursing.  I probably don't need to do it, but I think it is worth doing and it keeps me ticking along until I can start next year.

I have to do two subjects - Science for Nursing and Midwifery. I have not done anything Science related since year 10 and then I was not good at it.  So I think this will be quite valuable.  The other subject is Into to Maths - hey I have an Accounting Degree, so I dont need maths, but to do Open Foundations you have to do two subjects, so I guess it will just be an easy course for me.

Applications for the course open on 1st May - Thursday and then they have an information day in a couple of weeks, so I will go in and see what it is about.

At least I feel positive that I am moving forward.