Its All Good

I think that if I had posted yesterday I wouldn't have been able to give the same title.  Yesterday was a huge day.

Firstly, on Monday I went to the hospital with my parents so that my dad could have tests to see if the cancer had spread.  He was prodded and poked and drunk liquid that he thought suspiciously looked like urine.  In the afternoon he met with a Prostate Cancer Nurse and she explained all of the options that my dad has available for him.  I was exhausted and I wasnt the one that was going through that, so I totally understand when my dad called time on his appointment and said he would have to come back another day as he was exhausted.   His followup appointment with the Dr was yesterday where he would be given the results of his tests and give his decision of how he going to treat the cancer.  The Prostate Cancer Nurse thought it would be a good idea if I would be at the appointment as it would give another set of ears and another interpretation of what the Dr was saying. My mum really wanted me to come, but after telling them i would come, I decided against it as i really needed to go to work and face it.

Yesterday I went to work. As soon as I walked in my boss asked me to have a meeting with him. What annoyed me was the new girl was sitting there and could hear the whole thing. This was planned as she starts over an hour after me, so for her to be there, something was going down.   I was accused of doing things that I didn't do, but my boss didn't care.  They wanted me out and really to be honest, I was sick of all the garbage and was pretty happy to go, I just sat there and gave more than I got.  He said that I had the chance to resign or they would terminate me.  I said I was going home, and I walked out.

Yesterday the fear set in. I have always worked. I need to work. I need to work for us to financially survive. So to have no job and not knowing how much I was going to be paid out frightened me.  Yesterday I spent the day (trying to distract myself) looking for a new job.

My mum rung at 3:00pm to say that dad had been told that the cancer had not spread and it was contained in the prostate - thank fuck for that. That news made me sob like a baby. A horrible weight lifted off my chest immediately.  My dads operation is booked in for 11th June 2014 - so about 6 weeks to wait.  My younger brother is getting married in the USA on 28/06/14, so there is no way that my dad will be able to go as mum and dad  had planned a month long trip which included an Alaska Cruise.  My mum is still going to go, if I go with her.  I wasnt planning to go to the wedding. It sounds heartless, but this is his second marriage and it would have cost over $20,000 for Mat and the kids and I to all go. We didnt think it was worth going into debt for a wedding.

To add to my huge day yesterday, I decided to email UoN to find out if I qualified for Open Foundations. I had read on the facebook page that you cant have a degree.  So i emailed them as applications open tomorrow.  The answer came back that the information was correct and you will not be offered a place if you already have a degree.  Total despair as I had banked on going next semester.  The email continued to say that I should call Admissions and find out if my GPA (Grade Point Average) from my last degree would qualify for entry into the degree.  I rung Admissions and spoke with the loveliest girl. She asked what my GPA was - its 5.20 and she said she would look. Immediately she started to laugh and said that I would be a total shoe-in.  i asked her what GPA was needed and she said that in order to qualify for an early offer you needed a GPA of 3.65.  So now I dont have to worry about Open Foundations, I just need to work out what the hell i am going to do for the next 10 months until uni starts.

I didnt sleep much last night. I was worried about work.  I came to the conclusion this morning that there was nothing I could do. They wanted me out and they were making it very well known. I was more expensive at 2.5 days per week than the new girl was working full time.  She was brought in to do the sales role and it hasnt worked out so they are slipping her into my job as a massive saving.  There is no point in worrying. I have checked my pay this morning and I have been paid out about 6 weeks pay. Its probably more, but there is additional tax for the lump sum payment.  The good news is - I dont have to go back there, so really I am the winner.

Its all good today!